Friday, July 6, 2012

Diary of a homeless female

Today began exactly like most days.  Wherever I slept last night is the place I need to leave.  It is hot outside.  I am 54 yrs old.  I feel tired..sick.  After more than 2 yrs of homelessness, I am numb.  I use a donated bus ticket to go where other homeless people are.  They share information about where or how to get food.  I go into buildings to get water if it is available.  The day is a repeat of many, many days before.  I feel hopeless.   Don't know how to climb out by now.  The streets are my home.  I need a shower, but have no place to do that and no hygiene products.  I used to be so attractive.  Would never leave home without having my hair and make up done...clothes clean and appearance was manicured.  Now, when I see myself in the mirror, I don't recognize me.
I am vulnerable as a homeless person, especially because I am female.  I have not been assaulted, but have been ridiculed and been afraid.
Today is more of the same.  Survival is primary concern.

1 comment:

DLWhite said...

Please do not allow your outside to have an effect on your inside.

You are altogether beautiful, my darling, beautiful in every way.
(Song of Solomon 4:7)